I refrained from testing today, like a good girl. I am proud of myself. But now I wonder, and when I’m not busy with something else (like work today), I have time to ponder and obsess.
I have a long commute to and from work – about 45 minutes each way. This is dangerous. Even if I try to get really into whatever program is on NPR, I can’t focus on anything else but the question of whether or not I’m pregnant. Today, I was listening to “Travel with Rick Steves,” as he interviewed The Travel Channel’s Samantha Brown. I was mostly paying attention, and it sort of got my mind in the right place, until he mentioned, “And you are about to embark on a very different type of journey.” Yup, you guessed it, she’s pregnant, with twins, even! I can’t get away from it! The world is obsessed with babies and pregnancy, it’s not just me!
I didn’t want to talk too much about my symptoms, but I’ve had cramping on and off since yesterday. This means one of two things…AF is on the way, or implantation. I had some pretty intense cramps for a few minutes on the way home today. So intense, that I contemplated pulling over and taking something for it. Then I remembered that I don’t have any Tylenol in my purse, just ibuprofen. And Tylenol does nothing for me, anyway. But the cramps disappeared after about five minutes. I wonder what the heck that was all about?
Every symptom I come up with turns out to also be just a sign of either impending menstruation, or increased progesterone. It would be nice to get a clue!
Perpetually Follicular 